Running from LIFE!

publicerat i Astrid ♥;
you tell me that everything has a time limit on it; friendships, days, moments, love. everything is limited, you say, so we might as well rush, run. because it's all going to end anyway, right?

so i started to notice the time stamps painted on your hands, the calendars written all over your heart. i started to wonder, how much time do we have left? how many more held hands, secrets, inside jokes, i love you's? how many more?

i wondered and ran,

ran through the forests without smelling the scent of after-rain. i ran on the darkened streets at midnight without noticing the streetlights, passing lit houses of friends and the sounds of laughter meant to be shared with me. i ran through meadows and didn't see the flowers i stepped on.

and now it's midnight and cold. piano music is playing in the background, but my heart's too dead to hear it. now my ears are ringing and there's a pressure behind my eyes, and you're not here to tell me that it'll be okay.

for once, i'm still, but the world is racing around me and the colors are blurring,

and there won't be anyone to catch me when i finally fall.

Något nytt?

publicerat i Astrid ♥;

Ny låt "Falling"

The sun shines upon my face
And reveals hers within the clouds
A divine light so wondrous
Rays of pure golden happiness
It fills my heart whilst I fall
I feel the wind from beneath
I stretch my entire body
Like a bird I let the wind carry me
Within a beam of light I fall
*Spoken)
(Sudden changes ahead)

Who would want to live forever now
The light divine starts to fade
Clouds enveloppe the sky and myself
I feel a storm comming
There is nowhere I can hide
Helpless I keep on falling
I keep on falling

What where once rays of golden happiness
Now are dark beams of sorrow and hurt
My restless heart wants to burst out of me
The rain has stopped but still I feel sick
I’m still falling as the ground gets closer
As the rain stopped and the storm went to rest
I feel weary of this struggle
Restless, hopeless and alone
Never before have I felt this way
Whilst I fall I understand the meaning of experience

(Like feeling immortal)
Who would want to live forever now
The light divine starts to fade
Clouds enveloppe the sky and myself
I feel a storm comming
There is nowhere I can hide
Helpless I keep on falling
I keep on falling

I visited hell a couple of times
Seeing every second pass before my wet eyes
The pain slowly starts to fade
Life does not end here
The ground turns into mist
I was blinded by the light divine
Not seeing what truly happened
I opened up the most vulnerable spot in life
My trust, my hopes and dreams got blown away
In search of what was lost i fall

(In search of the healing kind)

Who would want to live forever now
The light divine starts to fade
Clouds enveloppe the sky and myself
I feel a storm comming
There is nowhere I can hide
Helpless I keep on falling
I keep on falling
There is nowhere I can hide
Helpless I keep on falling
I keep on falling

(Spoken)
And eventually …

Not knowing where my next flight may lead me

I keep on falling


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